Dear Best Friend,
Since the time CD players & Barbies were cool, you have been in my life. My family was your family and your family was mine. Back then life was somewhat simpler because our biggest question was, “do you wanna spend the night?” or “do you think he likes me?” That changed recently, when your mom was diagnosed with Colon Cancer.
I wish there was a way I could take all of your family’s pain away. I wanted nothing more than the power to wave a magic wand and the cancer would be gone. However, I know that is not realistic. I’ve hated watching you all go through this and at times I was at a loss for what to say, but I wanted you and still want you to know that I am always going to be here for you. I may not have all the right things to say, but I will do whatever I can to make sure you feel supported. Cancer sucks and that is the 100% truth, but you will make it through this and that is 110% true.
I’m sure thinking about the future and the fear that is there is absolutely daunting. Thinking that one day your mom will not be with you to make a silly, random joke about being tired or wanting cookies. But something else I know is that your mom will be in Heaven and she will be watching you at every given moment. Maybe eating a chocolate chip cookie or two. She might even be jamming out to “Gold Digger” every now and then. She is going to be looking at you so proud of the person you are becoming and how much you have done in your life. There will never be a moment that your mom is not with you.
I’ve heard that losing a parent is like losing a piece of yourself. Someone that can never be replaced or forgotten. You’ll have some “normal” days & then you might have times where you struggle to find yourself or struggle to find some sort of light in your life.
However, there is something about death and tragic occurrences like these that bring some sort of awareness to our lives. Life is not something that lasts forever. When we lose someone so close to us it has a rippling effect and you’ll find others will start to bring themselves closer to you. When a loved one passes away, you start to notice things a little differently. You’re no longer out with friends and complaining of “First World Problems.” You’ll start finding yourself hugging your loved ones a little longer & a little tighter.
Just remember, although it hurts a million times over right now, you will get through this. As much as we BOTH hate the saying, “Time heals ALL wounds,” we both know it is true. I know that time will never bring your mom back, but time will give you the chance to heal. Your heart will start to grow a little lighter and you’ll start to feel some sense of “normalcy.” And remember that during all this time your wonderful mother IS seeing all of this and she IS going to see everything you will achieve in this wonderful life you were given.
No matter how much it hurts, or when it hurts, it could be 5:30 in the evening or 5:30 in the morning, I am ALWAYS a phone call or text away. I will ALWAYS be here for you. I will try my best to keep you happy and love you like the sister you are to me. I also know that your mom loves you more than I could ever begin to imagine.